Posted by: R M White | 07/24/2009

Waiting … Good or Bad?

Waiting occupies a big portion of one’s life – the anticipation of things to come. Some of us do it well and some of us attack waiting with a vengeance and once it’s done we go looking for the next big thing – or little thing – to wait on.  Waiting involves all areas of our life – spiritually it may be on ‘growth’, physically on weight loss or healing, emotionally on a relationship to be fulfilled or fixed, financially we wait on the next paycheck or to be out of debt, and sometimes we wait for the next sunrise … ah, just so much waiting  So, for me, I am in the middle of  ‘times of waiting’.

This was where we were – just the waiting ‘game’.  Thursday the doctor told Janna that Sat. 4 a.m. would be the day to ‘come in’ and let’s get this baby here!  But then, how was he to know the delivery rooms would be full, or another Mom to be would show up along with ours? So, turn around and come home to go back several hours later only to be turned home again … whoa, this wasn’t what was to happen! Finally, Sunday morning … I waved them away in the drive while lifting up a prayer. Within the hour, 4:22 a.m., I got a text – “We are in. No coming home this time.”

Being told one thing, looking forward, and then the ‘rude’, unexpected, change of plans can be daunting.   I guess it depends on what it is you’re waiting for as to whether waiting is generally a good thing or bad thing. I do believe we can make up our minds to wait filled with peace or wait in dread, or maybe sometimes we even make up our minds as to whether to wait with absolute impatience or with trust.
I overheard Janna telling a friend the other morning that she was just fine with the ‘waiting’ . She was loving her ‘Emily-time’. Yeah, Janna! I think we can all learn a lesson here. Waiting on this second grand-daughter, has been a busy, but contented time and I, too, loved our time with just our Emily – relishing and delighting in her status as the ‘only’ grand baby and that’s not to say we didn’t eagerly await Madelyn – however, don’t you think so many times we rush the future into existence and thereby neglect/ignore the present?

I was busy waiting for this little precious life to join us and now that is over! She’s here and more than worth the wait! She is a unique, beautiful, amazing creation given to us by the Father of all our delightful surprises. Our Madelyn Elizabeth Herndon was born on a Lord’s Day – July 19, 2009 at 11:05 a.m. she was 7 lbs. 10 oz., 20.5 inches long. Family that wasn’t on hand at the delivery were in worship service in VA, TN and NC – I hope that is indicative of her future – that it will be a life where the worship of her Lord is a way of living. In fact, her Poppy, Lowell, was preaching this particular Sunday – he text-messaged right before he got up to preach, and I let him know Janna was in the pushing stage –  he called right after worship and Maddie was here! He put his phone on speaker and those around him cheered and clapped at her first cries. Thank God for cell phones because birth pictures were sent far and wide as we all welcomed her into the family.

We have been home from the hospital for several days now and the hours with this new little life in our midst fly by! Our world is different now the little family of three is now a family of four. Lowell and I now have 2 grandbabies. Our hearts are bigger, being filled with more love. I marvel at the newness of life and complete and total dependence of this little trusting being. She definitely has her times of tears but I know we can not even begin to imagine the adjustments she is going through. There must be fear, surprise, and wonder filling up her little, complex brain. Her needs are being met beautifully and although there are the challenges of jaundice to be met with its trips to the hospital to draw blood and the possible date with more ‘bili-lights’ we are indeed blessed with another healthy girl in the family – surrounded by love everywhere she turns. Her Daddy’s family is around her and us, the long-distance ones … all of us are ‘in love’!

And so, I leave today – to go back to my own home 100s and 100s of miles away. Pieces of me will be missing. My arms will ache with longing to hold this new life. My heart will yearn to see her tiny, beautiful face and her precious eyes searching out new sites, to hear her funny noises and even hear her cries. But not only will I miss Maddie, I will miss my times with Emily – over far too soon. Our teaparties, our times of ‘cooking’ together,  playing on her swingset, our walks, picking wild flowers and reading of books – and most especially our conversations! I will miss her dreadfully! And Michael – this son we welcomed into our family who has become such a vital part of who we are – his humor, his laugh, his tenderness with all his girls – I will miss him. And of course, this girl of mine – the incredible firstborn, Janna, all grown up with a home and family of her own – she has brought so much fufillment to my life. I am so proud of the woman she has become. It has been a good 2 weeks+ – this visit into the world of the Herndon family.

Once again, the Lord has been good to me.  Ahhh, Life – ya gotta love it!

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Psalm 27:14 Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.


Psalm 33:20 We wait in hope for the LORD; he is our help and our shield.

Psalm 37:7 Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him

Isaiah 30:18 Yet the LORD longs to be gracious to you; he rises to show you compassion. For the LORD is a God of justice. Blessed are all who wait for him!

Isaiah 40:31 But those who wait on the LORD Shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint.

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